stiff

i lost my informal words in a sudden
and wrote unusual words in a letter
dont know why
just because i am forced to do so
will it be okay
that is a question

now lets talk about another problem

i just want to have someone to talk to
ummm secrets especially
and now i am hopeless
so dont ask me why am i talking to myself in my bathroom
or when i see my reflection

and i say we when i am absolutely alone
talk to it when there is only myself hearing
my own words
like i so need best friends
and i think i lost them on my way back home
cant find them again
because they already bond with another

being left by time
being forgotten by strangers
its hard to make it easier
i made the best so hard and now i let them go
its not like i let them go easily
eventhough i try i cant just say hi and jump into their circle

i am not mad, i am not
remembering just make me want to have them again
cant they just say hello like usual and chat with me again?
do they know that i miss them badly?
will we back like we were and have such a fantastic time again?

why oh why we were fated to be seperated, God?
God you know everyhting dont you?
could you tell how are they? without me?
i bet you would say that they are okay. do they miss me? as i do?

why it is so hard to make another best thing
things will never be the same. again.
i could tell you this over and over
and i bet you will be bored and think i am nuts or so

my english crushed so bad until i want to be someone else
i cant even arrange the words correctly
i am turning into someone else everyday
as i am trying to forget them to make things easy

but unfortunately, it is not working. at all